Wednesday, March 26, 2008
im feeling abit.. i dunno.. down? dejected? lost? erm sian?
ru says one week before someone is going to leave the company she dun like, the person will feel very happy and excited.. i dun have the feel now lehz.. its not because i dun bear to leave the company or anything.. its just i suddenly got this feeling when i cant solve something at work today.. its gonna be my last day already and yet there are still some common problems which i cant identify and cant solve.. haixx.. failure lehz.. it just feel like i have wasted one year and gain nothing.. have i?
我觉得人很虚伪。包括我自己在内。今天心情明明不好,在别人面前还是要装笑脸。而且笑脸还装的好自然哦。就好像一边走,脸上本来是闷闷不乐,看到别人走过,虚伪的笑容就出来了。好快哦。连我自己都觉得自己太虚为了吧。可是这虚伪的一面已经变得是一件自然又理所担然的事。为什么会这样子?做人真的好可怜。我只有在我的姐妹的面前才能做我真正的自己,开心就开心,不开心就破口大骂。她们也都很understanding,不介意我的牢骚。谢谢你们。至少我还没失去真正的自己。=)
hmmm.. 天啊,我整天这样mood swing 会不会变神经病?哈哈~
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